To: New Beginnings!
In January this year I had set a resolution No Fast Food and I had hoped that it would lead to a healthier lifestyle. Well like most resolutions it did not last. Recently I have notices a little more around my waist and well I am tired. I never want to be as round as I am tall. I currently weight the most I have ever had in my whole life and it is a time to change.
I am 5’3” and I would guess… *as I have been to nervous to stand on a scale* that I weight about 220-225. I always swore I would never weigh more than 200 well that changed some where in the past two years.
I must say my downward spiral of bad choices and bad eating started in 2008. Just after New Years I had found out the my boyfriend of 4 years was cheating on me online… We had not been happy for a while and this was the final straw. We basically had a 4 month long break where we were living together although not together. In June of 2008 I met a new group of friends. They were both good for me and bad at the same time. It was 3 guys… (one who is the love of my life). I hung out with them and they introduced me to new people and I joined an improve group and well, my social network exploded. For the rest of 2008 I ate poorly and enjoyed pizza pasta and McDonalds. 2 liters of coke and Pepsi and no veggies! I did not exercise and gained my weight. I was stressed about my life and money and what I wanted to do and where I was headed. I hit a funk and pushed a lot of the positive friends and my family away. I did not want them to see me as I was embarrassed of who I had become. Aaron was one of my new friends and he stood by me throughout the whole year of stupidity and bad choices.
In February of 2009 my family had said well enough is enough. We had many long unhappy conversations and still Aaron stayed by me. He had told me he loved me although I did not love myself and was not ready for someone to love me. He still stuck around. In May 2009 I had sorted nearly all my mess out and was ready to be loved. We started dating and pretty much most of the bad things drifted away. I removed the negative people from my life and was ready to start a new chapter (well whole book). In June 2009 my friend Ellie got married and well we were friends before her wedding but afterwards our friendship blossomed. She became my shoulder to lean on and she was there during some hard chats. By the end of 2009 Aaron and I had moved in together and all is well.
So that brings us back around to the beginning of the post. Well for the past 2 months I have been on twitter and chatting with fit bloggers. I have also read many fit bloggers and reflected on some of the things that have done to change and improve there lives. I really want to get my life and weight in order. I want to be happy and healthy. I have chosen today to reflect and post this as it is time for that Change! It is time for me to shed the pounds and let go of the pain. I have been on this big kick where I want to run a 5k and well I am.
I AM A RUNNER *If I say it then I must be right?
Well here is my pledge:
I pledge to reflect on my choices both in eating and exercise. I am going to eat healthy and the CORRECT portion sizes. I am going to exercise on a regular schedule. I am going to follow my dreams and make goals (and stick to them). I am going to reduce my consumption of fatty foods and cut back on the amount of sugar I consume. I am ready to be HEALTHY HAYLEY!